Friday, January 02, 2004

{thursday}
it was new year. but it didn't feel like it. i had to go church and i wasn't in the mood at all. y? because some friendship problem happened btwn 2 of my gd friends. yar. i felt so helpless. dunno who to help. and both of them made some sense. i don't like it at all. it just sucks totally. can i have some peace. what a way to start a new yr. decided to remain neutral. it's easier. i don't like being in between, sitting on the fence but i guess it's the best way.

so yar, i totally screwed the new yr service's praise and worship session. i dunno if i was responsible for it. i know i didn't really practice hard enough and yar along the way during the transition of songs, i couldn't really see the signals sanhan gave me and jian hui didn't see it either. i'm like.. sharks. so we didn't know what to expect next and erm that's how the piano and keyboard and everything else got so messy. wanted to get back on form but it just got worst. screwed the intro, got into the wrong key, didn't know was suppose to change song.. missed the bridge of the song..so sian. nicky who was playing the drums was so lost and i know he probably was thinking what the hell we were playing man.

ok, my new yr resolution is to: play my very best for every service.. because it's for god

can't think of the others..have to really think about it. i wanna summarize my 2003. nah. i'm too tired to think.. we'll see if i m in the mood the next time.

in the afternoon.. quite suprised that kelvin and josh cycled to my house.(pleasant surprised, thought they were joking and too bored when they called me while i was sleeping.) hah. i really think they are crazy. kelvin lives in bukit timah! ok wow. that's like really far. he's just too free.

after that i really pia my maths. it's a new year.. but it doesn't feel like it at all. sian.

dear God, i just hope when school reopens things will get better.. everything.. friends, love, family, school, teachers, studies, trainings, church, youth group... ... forget the unhappy past, keep the wonderful memories and move on with my life.

{first day of school 2/1/04}
wah.. so sian but i m quite happy with all the teachers, gp class.. got so many breaks lar. haiz.. i hope i make use of them fully. nice seeing everyone again.. including guang rong.. haha.. but i'm still in the holiday mood.
no engine.
no drive.
what's wrong.

i guess the yr just started on a wrong note.

plus, alene and mich, becky and the others not in class.. kind of missed them too...
ended up stoning with josh and playing hang man because the bio teacher was so naggy;) oppsie. and yar.. was basically doing those self intro and house keeping stuff. how fun can it get?

i see so many rgs girls.. i know exactly how they feel. how many of them really want to come nj? ok, some maybe for the german programme. but yar.. they probably didn't do well for prelims.. just like me. i just hope that they can see something about nj that rj doesn't have. which is love and true friendships. it's nice seeing yr1s.. the mass dance and everything. reminds me of my orientation. i want to go through orientation again.. but this time with all the pple that i know. would be so fun!! haiz. it's too late. yr1 is gone. i'm a yr 2. i'm a senior. its too fast. can time slow down pls. pls.pls.

day ended at 5. so late. had trg. ok.. was cheng's bday and got her chocolate cake. after eating and doing the pt i really felt like puking. yuck. blah can't use the field and track so in the end did shuttle run. why can't we use the field. arrgh. we pay school fees and have to go all the way to kallang to use the field. sian rite. and we can't use it till next mth. gosh.

yeah! tmr no trg!! wohohoho. cool rite. i might go shopping. i dunno. or just stay home and complete my maths. poor me.

it's a new yr and a new beginning. next wk will be a better one. looking forward to that... buck up ching.. you can do it.. because..

"with god all things are possible".

shystar*;
x 1/02/2004 11:47:00 PM