Monday, March 01, 2004

[life can be colourful] if i want it to be

just got home and i decided that i need to blog before i take a bath and start anything. It's a long day today. i just slept thru the chem rememdial even though i think mrs chew is quite a good teacher. just couldn't stay awake. Week keong was also dozing off haha.

met yeng hian, wei ting and hwee ting yesterday. josh was suppose to come. erm, but yar didn't in the end(you've got to pay for that.) I feel kind of awkward dunno if you guys felt the same. haha. but as long as wei ting enjoys it then it's ok. you know how hard issit to get yeng hian to take neo print with us? and i had to suffer his numerous suaning. helps. Nice meeting him again. still the same 'coolness' in him. hope to keep in touch with him. it's been almost a year. glad we asked him to help out for fusion. He told me something about josh..haha. secret. and a lot of other stuff about first three mths. way to go! oh, and we watched BIG FISH! nice show. the movie's like a fairy tale and imaginative. Was so 'into' in that the fairy seemed so real and you wished you were in it too. Left the theatre with lots of doubts.. didn't know what was the link and everything. Are the twins fake? how bout the witch???

I wonder why issit so diff to make someone like you. i sort of know at least 4 pple who like someone but erm didn't dare to tell him/her. Guess love isn't easy afterall. To all who are still seeking.. god has his plans for ya=)

loads of things happening in church. coz reverend oey is leaving.. and seemed that a few pple didn't want him to leave. It's kind of complicated coz as members of the church we do not really have a say if we want him to stay or leave. Only the elders and decons are able to do so. It's kind of scary coz we are kind of "governed" by them. Hmm. I m still quite lost about this issue. I don't want to rebel against the church, coz i know that it wouldn't make any difference. and since rev oey coz quite a lot of confusion and unhappiness in the church, i guess it might be better for him to leave. of course i would never forget the changes he made to the church, how the nos started increasing when we started to have leaflets being put in mail boxes in sengkang, ponggol and other areas. think it was quite a significant no. and also, his passion in spreading the gospel and going for home visits every other day. He started cell groups which i guess weren't very successful, but it was he who got the violinst and singer to perform in our church? He is also the pastor who baptised me.. how can i ever forget?
I'm leaving it to God. He knows best.

Some of my friends didn't do well for their Os. They all came church in their gloomy faces. It's not so easy to console them..hopefully they will get out of their depression soon. Reminded me the tough times last year, all the ups and downs i had to pull thru. Don't worry, for we have hope in the Lord. Stand firm!

Went for morning prayer today. Long time since i went. Felt quite out of place suddenly. Jeremey gave me new task .. to lead a smaller group with hui min. Dunno if i am able to do it. It's a great chance to learn and to get closer to god again since i've lost touch with Him. I hope i will be able to do it! Hopefully more pple can know God and that we can grow in christ. Afterall, student venture made me feel "at home" in nj coz i found christian friends who shared the same belief.

School's been ok today. Just glad i survived. March is here already! So fast. 22 more days to the common test. I have to start working. i can't disappoint myself and anyone else anymore!

Fusion ended but seemed to me it didn't/ there are just so many arguments and bitching and backstabbing. It pains to see the central comm like dat. I don't wanna be invovled. What's done is done.. just move on. Why keep pursuing matters and blaming each other who's right and wrong. and writing emails to complain. Like it will help right. It's just an experience.. learn and Move on can. Thanks. Thanks.

i can sense something is wrong in the class. just that i don't know what to do or how to help. uh. just being over sensitive. maybe. but i don't like what i'm seeing now. guess i can't care anymore. let it be. let it be.

mum's nagging. she kept telling me As is 95% .. 95..95..95.. 95% of university admission. Morning and night. ouuch.spare me.Like i don't know. Haiz. and she warned me to start studying,in fear that i end up like my brother. No way no way.


A quote from BIG FISH.." THE MORE DIFFICULT SOMETHING BECAME, THE MORE REWARDING IT IS AT THE END."
and

Life can be colourful if you want it to be.

I want it to be yellow and orange. so bright and cherry!

shystar*;
x 3/01/2004 08:31:00 PM